Its one those nights. its diagnosed from these symptoms;
1. Can’t sleep.
2. A lot of indecisiveness with the smallest issues, (Do I want to make a sandwich? i am hungry, but do I really want to? I mean I don”t need to eat… what kind of sandwich would it be anyway)
3. Feelings of insignificance and returning issues of self worth.
4. Bordom.
Yea, you guessed it, I think its Identity.
Now let me say, Im the guy that will tell you anything straight up. I have no pride with be strong or weak. As a twenty something I know this is all normal, but it doesn’t make it easier.
I also for some reason feel like I should be so much older. I feel like I have pressures and expectations for myself of a 30 year old. Why? probably of the struggles I have faced already through being married young, disease and health, responsibilities.
Yea I know, excuses, but I think these things make me feel like I need to have it all together, I should know who I am, and what I like to do, and what I’m good at, but I don’t!!
I feel like I need to make decisions about what I want to do and what I want to get better at.
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I always have been under the thought that the devil was out to get me to Hell. Through making me see dead people (never happened) and peeing my pants (has happened), from tricking me to sin, temptation, and just al this evil stuff like repetitive numbers and horns. But I think his best tool is to make us confused about ourselves, and to make us waste time.
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no photo today. just a remedy if your feeling this way…..
Napoleon Dynamite, the part were Kip runs over the Tupperware bowl with the orange van to show it’s strength. It shatters under his left rear tire and says “dang it.”
laughter and joy.
it keeps demons at bay.